Post by jacobi on Nov 26, 2012 18:04:15 GMT -5
WARNING: CHARACTER DEATH
The room is silent. Jacobi stands alone. A single file dangles from his hand, a hand that has cut and sewn many a body, a steady hand that now shakes as though palsied. In bold letters, the name Kasper Hunt glares up at him.
It can’t be true, and yet, there is little reason for the records to have been faked and, when he stops to think about it, Jacobi realizes that the signs have been there all along, adding up like dominoes being readied for a fall, he’s simply refused to see them.
The fear in her eyes, he’d attributed it to the past, to all of the times when he could have stopped everything but had been far too young, too ignorant, to consider taking action. He’d seen it not as fear, but as a kind of accusation, a sign that some things couldn’t be swept under the rug, regardless of how much time had passed. The shaking had been much the same, a facet of fear, of distrust, and the occasional cough had been overlooked, because it never occurred to him that something might be amiss, that she might be suffering from something more taxing than the common cold. It never occurred to him that his services might be best used elsewhere, that while he was off tending to the forgotten unfortunates in the Rock Tunnel prison and giving speeches in Unova, championing the Lux cause, the one person that he ought to have been looking out for was once again slipping away from him, only this time, there’d be no seeking her out years after the fact.
He’d seen little enough of her since they’d run into one another at the hospital in Goldenrod, though he’d been sure to keep tabs on her whereabouts, and if she’d looked a little off at the last council meeting, he’d attributed it to nerves, anxiousness at being trapped in a room with him, or the losing the debates, or simply rising tensions between the war’s two major factions, but this, this was a beast of a different kind.
It occurs to him now that he should have noticed, that he should have paid her a few more visits. He’d learned where she’d taken up residence quickly enough, after all, and yet he hadn’t. He’d wanted her to come to him, to accept that his intentions were pure, that he wanted little more than to reconnect with the sister he’d thought he’d lost…The sister he’s going to lose.
He imagines her now, scared and alone, lungs filling with blood until she can do little more than gurgle and gasp, knows that, in all likelihood, he’s failed her yet again, stood inactive when he could have made all the difference. He’s definitely not getting a big brother of the year award, but perhaps there’s still time, perhaps he can save her. No, there has to be time. He will save her…provided the illness hasn’t progressed past the point of no return. Eisenmenger Syndrome: the prognosis is grim, but he’s beaten near impossible odds before. If he can seal up the breach, reroute the blood flow and reduce some of the pressure on her lungs, there may yet be a chance - A slim chance. If it’s progressed too far, she’ll need a transplant. Jacobi knows for a fact that the waiting list for lung transplants, hell for any kind of transplant, is a mile long.
The sound of a fist slamming into a filing cabinet is the last thing heard from the records room before Jacobi and Trillium vanish from sight.
When they reappear, they’re in a living room that ought to be unfamiliar. Jacobi knows it well, though he’s never been there when its owner has been present. Now he calls to her and hopes against hope, vowing that he won’t fail her this time that, if necessary, he’ll cut down the entire transplant list himself, one patient at a time.
“Kasper?”
It can’t be true, and yet, there is little reason for the records to have been faked and, when he stops to think about it, Jacobi realizes that the signs have been there all along, adding up like dominoes being readied for a fall, he’s simply refused to see them.
The fear in her eyes, he’d attributed it to the past, to all of the times when he could have stopped everything but had been far too young, too ignorant, to consider taking action. He’d seen it not as fear, but as a kind of accusation, a sign that some things couldn’t be swept under the rug, regardless of how much time had passed. The shaking had been much the same, a facet of fear, of distrust, and the occasional cough had been overlooked, because it never occurred to him that something might be amiss, that she might be suffering from something more taxing than the common cold. It never occurred to him that his services might be best used elsewhere, that while he was off tending to the forgotten unfortunates in the Rock Tunnel prison and giving speeches in Unova, championing the Lux cause, the one person that he ought to have been looking out for was once again slipping away from him, only this time, there’d be no seeking her out years after the fact.
He’d seen little enough of her since they’d run into one another at the hospital in Goldenrod, though he’d been sure to keep tabs on her whereabouts, and if she’d looked a little off at the last council meeting, he’d attributed it to nerves, anxiousness at being trapped in a room with him, or the losing the debates, or simply rising tensions between the war’s two major factions, but this, this was a beast of a different kind.
It occurs to him now that he should have noticed, that he should have paid her a few more visits. He’d learned where she’d taken up residence quickly enough, after all, and yet he hadn’t. He’d wanted her to come to him, to accept that his intentions were pure, that he wanted little more than to reconnect with the sister he’d thought he’d lost…The sister he’s going to lose.
He imagines her now, scared and alone, lungs filling with blood until she can do little more than gurgle and gasp, knows that, in all likelihood, he’s failed her yet again, stood inactive when he could have made all the difference. He’s definitely not getting a big brother of the year award, but perhaps there’s still time, perhaps he can save her. No, there has to be time. He will save her…provided the illness hasn’t progressed past the point of no return. Eisenmenger Syndrome: the prognosis is grim, but he’s beaten near impossible odds before. If he can seal up the breach, reroute the blood flow and reduce some of the pressure on her lungs, there may yet be a chance - A slim chance. If it’s progressed too far, she’ll need a transplant. Jacobi knows for a fact that the waiting list for lung transplants, hell for any kind of transplant, is a mile long.
The sound of a fist slamming into a filing cabinet is the last thing heard from the records room before Jacobi and Trillium vanish from sight.
When they reappear, they’re in a living room that ought to be unfamiliar. Jacobi knows it well, though he’s never been there when its owner has been present. Now he calls to her and hopes against hope, vowing that he won’t fail her this time that, if necessary, he’ll cut down the entire transplant list himself, one patient at a time.
“Kasper?”